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 You keep checking her TikTok, and you see images of her very pretty and in beautiful locations and you can't help but think that she is with someone else. She ignores your messages for HOURS and don't even bother to reply. The only time she messages first is when she needs something from you. Stop torturing yourself. She is not coming back. She only wants you because you are useful to her -- to help her affidavit, to receive money. If you weren't useful, she would have ignored you a long time ago.

After I got home, not even a thank you message. And yet you still hold on to her.

Tonight we kissed. She said it was for the last time. She said she wants to be loyal to Jerwin because he left his family for her, and she would be an asshole if she left him after what he did. She was wearing a black shirt and green shorts, and was sweating. She even asked me to wipe her back while lifting her shirt and between her bra. She has a slightly different version of how things ended between us, but that's okay. I gave her the 2k Maya Impian gave me. Walang kapalit, we agreed. For now, I think it is really over. I am still praying to Allah so that me and her will end up together, but only Allah knows everything. I still love her.

3AM, 4 august 2026  dear aby, i think i'm fooling myself for believing that there's still a chance of us getting back together. kahit napaka close natin kapag nagkikita tayo, even though you let me hug you and kiss you when we're alone together, i don't think you'll ever choose me. what you said earlier that you and jerwin are back together just sunk in at 2am. the fact that you flew to dubai to be with him for a week, talong talo ako doon. even when we were together, there were times that you compared me to him. and that only meant that he is your benchmark, and if i couldn't match that benchmark, i could never be your choice. the fact that months after you broke up, he still found a way back to your heart, talo ako doon. kahit na marami akong maoffer (spouse visa, stability sa malaysia, etc), you still chose him even if it appears to me that he has none of that to offer you. again, talo ako. the fact that despite all your horrible fights in the past, sya pa ri...